my boy/ i could breathe him and never let him out/ he's the type of sunshine you would want to take a bite of / white light coated with sugar / i want to fit into the creases of his smile / stay there until i feel like myself again / my boy / his skin doesn’t burn in the sun like mine / he can't he hear the cries of the moon when the screeches pierce through me / and yet his footprints don’t wash away from the shores of my tides / my boy / would scratch the clouds out of a rainy day / would return the stars to the night sky / would hold up the skies when it could crash into me / would press tears flowing out of my eyes into my skin / my boy / he is not kind enough to be sweet / these "woulds" were all nonsense inside my head / promises that I thought were written on his skin / but I just got all the words wrong / not every act of kindness is a vow of love / if only I knew the difference / the love that was missing when I was kid lies in your empty palms / I was scraping the floors to find the remains to fill the void I've created / my boy / I cannot hold you, my hands are covered with blood that is not mine / I've ruined those who dared come near my shores and I will ruin you too / run until your lungs turn purple / my boy / I don’t know who's fault it is / my boy / why does he still extend his hand? / he waits under the ocean currents for me to return / he doesn’t know I don't hide under there anymore / and he'll never know / my boy / why did I have to lose you too? / my boy is the reason I'll never love again.
